Dithargia, to be or not to be.

You know that feeling like you're in a bubble...people are talking, yelling, screaming, you might be working in class, sitting on a bus or walking down the street...but it's like they aren't really getting through to you. You hear them, you see them, you smile and laugh and do all that you must because society dictates its the go. You aren't depressed, you aren't crying on the inside and covering it up. It's just a huge effort to respond to people because you're content to watch the world go past. You aren't exactly empty inside, it's more as though you are full...but full of emptiness. It has substance in this state.

You do know this feeling?

It's like someone has injected a local anaesthetic into my little bubble...writing this isn't triggering emotion...it is merely fact. I am not melancholy nor am I depressed or lethargic. It goes deeper...or sideways maybe.

One has to become a master at masking the signs of this dithargia. This is the name I have given this strange feeling, as one may suggest it is a combination of depression and lethargia. If one does not mask the signs, all kinds of assumptions will be made about oneself. The first few times it is difficult to hide. A certain blankness of the face and of reaction may be detected, possibly less laughs but also less frowns. Less reactions after insults have been cast. Overall it is a safe place to be, this dithargia, unless detected.

Once detected meetings with psychologists or school councillers might be put in place, parents may ensure eating habits are healthy and no strange sounds come from the bathroom after, friends may edge away, or report strange behaviour. Dithargia, once put under this stress, no longer copes as such, instead this benign state of mind leads to what is known as depression.

Only "under pressure" does this usually occur. One may say that opposed to the everyday ups and downs of life, dithargia is a "happy" place to be. It is certainly more hassle free. Unfortunately it may also lead to incompleted homework, unanswered text messages and poor exam results. However if carefully managed the outside body may continue to process the delicacies of every day life while the mind and soul remain unoppressed within the warm walls of the human psyche.

Expertise must be achieved to experience the perfect state of mind where effort is no longer required to keep the sack of intestines, arteries, bones and other necessary innards functioning as per the norm. This allows full relaxation to occur. It does still however complicate human relations, the closer the relationship is the more the person may realise they are dealing with a content yet partially absent drone. In a situation such as this dithargia is difficult to maintain without losing the one's closest to you, however if you have achieved full dithargic state this should not be a problem to you.

You are the weakest link.
Goodbye.